farshahheartts

tiring days ;/

2012-02-14T04:44:00.000-08:00

N: aku tak suke kau uh.

F: huh? asal plak?

N: smua org suke kau.

F: =.= mepek pe kau. asal tbe tbe kau ckp mcm tu?

N: aku da terpikat nan die, skali die mintak number kau plak. kau ni.....

F: hahahahahhaa lerrr. kau nak amek ah. aku no time lah for this.

N: taknak uh, die da suke kau.

F: mepek lah mepek mepek.

N: hbestu kalau da mintak number kau tu ape beb?

F:mcm lah aku bg number aku kat die. tak semestinyer kalau org suke kte, kte kne suke dorg balek stkt nak jage hati dorg balek. tu da kre mempermainkan perasaan org dah. kte sbgi umat islam kne.......

N: ah k k dah mula dah dier..........

been mingling with primary school babies lately. even though they can be quite demanding and darling at times, i find them v v v v adorable. whenever i come for class, they would always ask me 'you hv boyf tak?' hahah, haiyoo. but as he said, dont choose them bcs of favouritism but bcs of their ability. i'll make them play until they are playable and make them be on stage in april. thats my aim.

i dont hv much of a free time lately. been really really busy, back and forth from beginning to th end.. i tried to give my time for catching up with loves still. maybe it is only for a short period of time. but i do still treasure them;)

if second chance doesnt work, should they be given the third forth and fifth chance? -ST.

evryone deserve the chances. things happened likea blink of an eye. you cant change a person, but you can change your ownself. just dont repeat the same mistakes and i believe, evryth that you wanna it to be, will turn up well.

2012-02-09T06:55:00.000-08:00

you will not be able to frgt the person if you kept looking at his/her pictures, reading his/her mxges twitter blog eg.

2012-01-31T22:31:00.000-08:00

if she or he is meant to be yours, then one day they will be

belated birthday(s) !

2012-01-28T04:35:00.000-08:00

thanks for the day girlfriends! even though it was just a short one, but it was still a successful one:D hope you two babies enjoyed your mini birthday as well yeh. love'yall soo much! much misses<333

2012-01-27T03:31:00.000-08:00

we cannot change our past, change the fact that people will act in a certain way, or change the inevitable. the only responsible thing we can do is to play on the one string we have. and that is our attitude. we should be responsible for our own well-being because our actions and behaviour will have a significant impact on ourselves and others. attitude is more important than appearance, giftedness and skills.

i dont mind if they get what they want but i dont. but sometimes, life can be just unfair. too unfair..

Happy Birthdaaaaaaaay! xx

2012-01-27T03:07:00.000-08:00

other January babies<3

i dont feel like moving on, even though i know i should...

2012-01-21T02:17:00.000-08:00

CCA DAY!

the way you talked to me had somehow made me feel different. no no not me. you. firstly you disappeared just like that and i heard no more news from you. maybe i could understand that part bcs i was busy preparing for my exams and o's, but when you asked me hows my results recently, i knew something is missing.. the only thing that you said was 'okay'? that's it? that's all that you can say? idk what had happened to you for the past several months but i believed, you're no longer the sweet-and-caring person i knew anymore. that's how everything tells me when you behaved that way to me. whatever it is, must i bother about us? must i even care and ask you what's lingering in my mind? all i need was your encouragement and the person i knew 5years ago. true uh what most ppl say. you cant expect someone to remain the same. you will lose them maybe not now or any sooner, but later.. for sure.

i was clearing my stuffs days ago when i found load and load of letters and i kept them all in a box -friendship and love letters;p its been more than 7years and i still yet to keep them. reading the letters again remind me of th sweet and bitter times i had in the past. anyhooos, life hv been dull i guess.. still waiting for posting results. idk what Allah has wriitten for me in the future, but i really hope it would be the best for me. life has its ups and downs. so i dont wish for happiness at all times. the main thing issssss......... im pretty worried about my health now. tsk, how ah.. scared leh.. ;/

i miss lyana. i miss suhaidah. i miss qash. i miss zakir. i miss nurman. i miss ekmal. i miss irma. i miss ezzatti. i miss nasyah. i miss aiman. i miss halmie. i miss izhar, i miss aidil. i miss atiqah. i miss afiqah. i miss fiqah. i miss linaa. i miss ain. i miss dina. i miss dinah. i miss tasha. i miss fevi. i miss elyn. i miss amira. i miss nurin. i miss sufihie. ugh, not done. i miss a lot ah! :( if only we're all still in siglap now, we would probably see each other in school everyday right? without fail. now? tsk... what a life eh. :/

2012-01-08T01:30:00.000-08:00

i only want friends that knows the real meaning of friendship. not to take advantage of other people. in short, i only need true friends to stay. and dont ask for sympathy. it doesnt work for goodnessss saaaaake. be sincere.

rainbow troops

2012-01-04T02:13:00.000-08:00

live to give as much as you can, not take as much as you can. -laskar pelangi

2011-12-31T23:17:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year 2o12 ;)

2011-12-30T06:37:00.000-08:00

some idiots may think that promises are meant to be broken. it hurts when you broke the promise. but its more painful when you swear, and then you promise. these days, i just feel down. so down.. but i just dont know why. adding to this, everything that had happened that night is still hunting me till now. whenever i feel like going out, i would need someone to accompany me. someone to guide me throughout. this may sounds stupid because it didnt happen to anybody else but myself. the reason why i dont wanna talk things out is because i personally feel that sometimes, keeping quiet is much more safer and calm-er. if only it didnt happened, i wouldnt be feeling insecure and worried,, ive also been dreaming more than once about my upcoming results. woke up and found tears rolling down my cheeks. what does ths mean to me? everything just doesnt seemed right these days.. i tried to frgt evryth abt th bitter moments i had but why is it so bloody hard?? besides all these, friendship has also been, pretty bad i must say.. not to all but a few of them. must you lie to me my dear friend? if its so, tell me why. dont hide behind the bush and pretend like you did nothing wrong. youre avoiding me bcs you feel guilty abt wht you have done right? ive been very patient w you for two years straight. i hold on to the pain myself. have you ever understand how i feel when you treat me this way? dont lie to me bcs sooner or later, i will find out. i dont wanna confront you now bcs youre one of the love ones im close with. if time matters and this goes on, then i might hv to. people just need to hit them hard behind their back, then they will know how much they have hurt their love ones. not as a revenge, not as a lesson. but to let them know and understand how painful it is to play with people's feelings. its not a joking matter. smua da 17 kan? da boleh pkir. stakat bangga dgn tingkatan umur je buat ape? when i post this, it just simply means that im ending my year with a disheartened heart:/

mentally and physically..

2011-12-27T22:48:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, i do need to confide in someone. But most of the time, i think its best for them to left unsaid .

dont just assume..

2011-12-26T04:48:00.000-08:00

when i meant friends, its just ordinary friends.

UnderWaterWorld .

2011-12-26T04:13:00.000-08:00

stop that ego.

2011-12-24T03:37:00.000-08:00

i'm treating everyone fairly. fair and square. not more, not less -.- why is it so difficult for you?

2011-12-22T04:50:00.000-08:00

post on surabaya-jakarta is below. blog's making trouble=.=

kuala lumpur, port dickson and so forth..

2011-12-18T00:43:00.000-08:00

FAMILY TRIP♥♥

10 december 2011-12 december 2011

2011-12-15T06:05:00.000-08:00

dasar jantan gatal =.=

letting go..

2011-12-13T02:44:00.000-08:00

what i saw was hurtful.. what more can i say? i can't trust you even. you disappoint me eventhough you've disappeared from my life in a blink of an eye.

its true.

2011-12-09T02:48:00.000-08:00

dont judge a person by his or her appearance because sometimes, what we expect would turn up to be something unexpected.

2011-12-07T01:12:00.000-08:00

if i know this would happen, i wouldnt want to come back to singapore so sooon.. :/

before, during and after trip. unforgettable moments

2011-12-05T22:09:00.000-08:00

SNO picnic!^.^ 16 december 2o11katy darla!

zulhilmi dearest! -orchard waiting for flight to go home. and the time where the angel-mortal game was revealed;D the biggest roller coaster that we rode;D

farihin dearie!

zul's idea-.- haha.
we planned to wear the same shirt that we bought before going to indonesia, heh.
hotel in Jakarta;) the other part of the room is somewhat likea kitchen and small corner with sofa and table. it is more likely like an apartment. since we were the only ones on the 17 level and it was quite quiet, we went to irma&lynda 's room on the 15 level. besides them, there were also anep and amy which was just beside us. fathiah sisterlove!aminah darling!hafeez dearest! wearing plain T blood sisters and brothers in SNO, haha. GENESafiqah and alisya babies! taken at the airport. we had to take another flight to Jakarta. room-mate! ;Dafter the performance, we went back straight to hotel. wash up and went out for dinner and shopping! afiqah sweeets!Mr K: lets play for the orphanage )); -laskar pelangi
this was before the performance. we had to wait for hours before we perform, and it was really2 hot and all of us were perspiring profusely-.-" hotel in surabaya^.^sing along~ahneeez dearie!the blue and pink scarfs are sisters. look alike dont they? ;)
having lunch. fitri sweets! -buddy.

she's so adorable;D
fito baby! must look at his face when the balloon pops, funny yet cute;D

he was one of the victim who was affected in tsunami 2004. his face tells everyth.. :/

arrived at the orphanage.
saje je potong line. HAHA ;p zulka! my mortal;Dzulkarnain and nasir brothers! my all time joker^^zulfadli dearest!haneef dearest! we had to wait before we board the aeroplane, and this was the time where the angel and mortal game started;Dafiqah and atiqah babies!aidil dearest!dinah dearie!alisya sweets!lynda darling! nurin baby! i admire that boy in that green-white shirt. HAHA. sorry halmie ;p busy packing.

amy step malu nak amek gbrrrrrrrr-.- haha.

last training and we were all so excited for the trip already^.^ combination between siglap secondary and macpherson primary school. ps:not all pics are uploaded, these are just roughly a 'short story'

2011-12-03T06:22:00.000-08:00

sick.

tell me how am i gonna trust you when you kept lieing to me? fcuking tell me? i have been soo patient with you. every time i tried to talk to you, my mind kept saying, 'frgt it' you hurt me so hard that i treated you like this. you dont like my way. so you think i like what you did to me?? idc if you were to read this bcs i seriously had enough. )':

madhatters:D

2011-11-21T05:58:00.000-08:00

GRADNIGHT ♥♥

i know its been quite some time since i last blog. but im busy with sno right now. going for an overseas trip! ^.^

cannot take it

2011-11-16T05:34:00.000-08:00

youre seriously pissing me off.

2011-11-07T01:26:00.000-08:00

CONVOCATION

if only you would understand what i'm feeling right now..

someone broke into tears :p

2011-09-24T05:12:00.000-07:00

Happy 17th Birthdayyy Lyaaaaanaaa!

hopefully you enjoyed the surprise birthday party that we had yesterday. sorry if we(the three of us) ignored you like totally when we came to school that afternoon. hehhh. and i believed all of us surely enjoyed toooooooooo^^ w/o your sister's help also, this thing wont work. and coincidently, we met your mum and brother when we were on our way to your house. so yeaah:) i wanted to upload the video but technical problem uh. haha. i'll try to upload it next time or show you someday okaay. ;D

prelims is coming to an end. what's next? (testing) O.o

2011-09-14T04:34:00.000-07:00

it is heartbreaking to see someone you love happy with the one she or he loves. But it is more painful to know that someone you love is not happy when she or he is with you.

this is only prelims, i bet olvls will be worst :/

2011-09-06T00:55:00.000-07:00

May This Day Happened Again, simultaneously ♥♥

2011-08-26T06:21:00.000-07:00

BREAK FAST WITH LOVES
ADAM KHOO"S WORKSHOP
SNO TRAINING
HARI RAYA WITH FAMILY

2011-08-06T03:18:00.000-07:00

RACIAL HARMONY.

SEMINAR AT TEMASEK POLY.

ANGKLUNG SHOW AT ESPLANADE.

NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATION.

the basic fact..

2011-06-26T05:18:00.000-07:00

there are choices that everyone has to make in life, including how to present your past to the people in your present.
time is one dimension we cannot travel back and forth in, as much as we wish we could.
but our perception of it can change. we can experience it in different ways, we say it drags or flies by, and now i realised that the problem with time when you are essentially friendless is that it appears static, unchanging. and once you lied, you have to remember to stick with it. that's the tricky part. i'm not mad or have grudges on you, i'm just disappointed and upset. and i began to lose heart and hope..

i like to go to the amusement park bcs i like challenging rides.

i like to be challenged, bcs i am a challenger.

okay, the second part is likely just for entertainment- particularly for me. school's reopen tomorrow, happy studying ;)

trying my best to keep smiling..

2011-06-24T06:30:00.000-07:00

motivational talk on the 22 & 23 was (Y)

-sorry fr being th starter of sorrowness :p

speechless..

2011-06-21T06:55:00.000-07:00

i cried to see him lying on the hospital bed with those wires around his hands and neck.

i tried to control my tears at that point of time when i saw my mum cried.

that midnight, we received a call saying that our late grandfather had passed away.

we were all stunned..

i dont know how to describe my feelings besides distraught.

weak, extremely upset, and more..

i cried the whole night until i fell asleep and the last time check was already 3am?

i woke up again an hour later when i heard my parents voice in the living room.

i cried again.

the next morning, we went to see th dead body.

i cried to see my love ones cried.

i cried after i kissed his forehead,

i cried because he had been suffering for the past few years.

i cried because he had to leave us in a such critical condition.

i cried because he left us on father's day.

i cried because everything have been from bad to worst from the beginning of the year till now.

i cried because i dont know what steps i should take next..

what does all this means to me right now?

rest in peace atuk)))))))))))))))))""""":

i will not be active from next week onwards due to vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvery tight schedule.

the next thing i know i should do is to focus on my prelim 1 and prelim 2 and then the major exam, Olvl.

gooodnight.

during camp and after camp ♥

2011-06-16T07:35:00.000-07:00

4th of june, SNO fun camp'2o11:D

its been a week since i came back from camp actually. camp was superb-awesome! and performance was a blast:DD and its been quite some time since i wrote a long post, mind me. i'll likely summarise everything (:

Day 1: HNO reached earlier than SNO did;p we had combined practice from morning till around 2, i think? packed and off to vivo. as the sunset rose, didnt expect a large crowd to be there conquering the whole place. it was a ecstatic and honoured feelings to perform in a public place again. most importantly, organised by our own schooool^^ aiman! thanks for coming, HAHA zzzzzz. and sorry memaen tarik2 btw. TERTARIK i meant;p reached sch at night. err, and then we went to our bunk and everything. this was the very first time that all of the girls slept in the music room, and boys in the ava^^ meeting. wash up. lights off.

Day 2: breakfast. i frgt the games that we had in each day actually,heh. all i could remember was most of the juniors were afraid of the wet games we set, hahaa adorable. after all the games that we had till late night, seniors had meeting. washup and then lights off.

Day 3: breakfast. games. went to prp after lunch. after 4years of sno camp, we hv nvr had outdoor activities. so we created one this year^^ -sand castle competition, flag game, dog and bone(wet version). back to school. dinner. we spent our very last night together; campfire -most memorable and touching part of the camp to rmbr(': -talent time, music freeze, heart to heart session as a whole. this was the third time that we cried as a bigloving family, and i meant AS A WHOLE♥♥♥ meeting. washup. it was suppose to be lights off afterwards, bt some of us went out to watch movie+slack:DD

Day 4: after breakfast, the girls had to pack our begs and shift to ava due to some reasons. once we had cleared our stuffs, we did area cleaning. afterwards, back to ava. -some performances and prize giving. after everything was over, seniors had a short meeting. and then when we were gg out frm the ava, some of the juniors who were waiting for some of us laid down on the floor, and i remembered zul saying, "ya allah, ni tak cukup camp ke? cher! they want more camp!" HAHA, sooooooooo the cute:DD baccckk home. ): hahh, i dont feel like going home yet yknw at that point of time.

so yeah, thats about it. time flies fasttt when we were having loaaaaaaaads of fun, tsk. anyhoos, i cherish every single moment that we had. FOREVER SNO♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ~

last friday, went to watch movie as a gathering with dearest sno loves. and celebrated nasir's birthday as well. (: went out with three young hilarious boys and girlfriend today, and going out with family tomorrowwwwwwwww. extra classes starts nextweek. ohmy, i hv not yet to finish my homeworkkkkkkk-.- oh! pics? errrr, not now? hahh. okayyy, done posting, goodbye<3

you may have continue with your life. i tried to avoid the questions asked by them about you, bcs fr sure, that made me rmbr evryth abt you and that night...

belated mini party:D

2011-06-03T03:04:00.000-07:00

finally. i was unable to log in into my account for the past few days, idky=.= photos were took on the day i was on my bed, reading novel. they called that afternoon and asked me to get ready and meet them. so yeh, i did. (:

" hello awesome-ladies^^ just wanna say thankyouvvvvvm for everything. every year had been a great and memorable ones for me, without fail. i appreciate every single thing that you gave. i hope our friendship will not cut at any point of time, and could last forever, InsyaAllah. you girls are the bestest and will always be♥♥ *create a teddy bear using text* much loves, farshaa. "

i know this might be a very late post, but its the thought that counts:D not in order: family. diana. suhaidah. lyana. iffah. medot. qash. ayyied, hafizul. fadhil. yousuf, yusree. adieq. izhar. zulkanain. halmie. aiman. elynn. asshiddiq. fiqah. khidhir. haiqal. haslinah. ezzatti. syafiq. zulfeqhar. syafiq. nasir. ammar. ekmal. hafeez. faiz. hambali. adie. firdaus. maisurah. tashaa. - thankyouuu once againn for the wishes and presents toooo♥♥

will be having sno-fun camp for the next four days, including performance:DD i used not to look forward for all these bcs i was v sure tht my mye was badly done at that point of time(and i was right) but nahhhh, i think i should get a break. i dont want to feel down or distraught anymore, over evryth that have happened for th past 5months or so. i wanna enjoy myself to th fullesttttt, hopefully i will.. afterwards, i should get back on track. even though i know there is no such thing as a happy ending, a lil part of me thought i had found one. but you cant have an ending, its impossible. because life goes on. youre not at the end until you die.

"never regret about what have been done. always move on." -aiman

will be back sooon.

menyintai tidak semestinye memiliki..

2011-05-22T06:14:00.000-07:00

the ones that remembered this date will be the one i will remember forever, thankyousooomuch.♥♥♥

ps: i'l update soon, hopefully..

before, during and after syf~

2011-04-29T01:42:00.000-07:00

i miss syf<33

you were on your way back home with your friends when you saw someone who you seemed familiar from the way he/she walked. you had someone in your mind whn you saw that person and since it was dark, you took another glance. unexpectedly, your prediction was true. (smth hppn and im forward-ing the story) you were shivering throughout and tears started to well up in your eyes. your heart was beating real fast and you dont feel good, at all. you dont care who were ard you at tht point of time. when the person left you, you felt a lil secured bcs yr friends were still there with you to cheer you up no matter what. that same night, you received calls, but you ignored bcs you were still on the verge of tears, ever since you reached home. and then your siblings or some of your family members had those question marks on their faces when they saw tears rolling down on your cheeks, but they kept quiet.
it felt so pain and distraught to handle them, especially during your exams. )):

mye is officially over . specifically i knw tht i hv nt done well...

when will all of you ever undrstnd wht we want?

2011-04-16T06:29:00.000-07:00

training last monday was filled with tormenting of mixed feelings. in short, everything was all out at that very moment, at last. we cried real hard and continuously, it have certainly brought a big impact and awareness to all of us, tht our major performance is just next weeek. we are only left with few more days to get evrything accurate and polish. 'i dont care wht colours you will get. as long as you did yr best and i hear th best of you, you will still feel satisfied even when youre out of th sch in th future' sch seems to hv high hope on us, we hv nvr promise to get th award tht we got fr th past two syf. we will do our best, and gv th best tht we can, God's willing. and congrats to the other cca(s) tht had achieved their respective awards; ) all the best to th remaining cca(s) ;D anw, during pc last lesson. principal came into our class to hv so-called a motivational talk fr, 1hr/60mins/36oosecs;p mind me cs i didnt really paid much attention at tht tme, it was jst th nxt day and i heard tht most of us were not in goood mood like how we used to. oh, thrs once he said, 'give yourself a chance to succeed' and most of us realised that we all should do what we want; passion. at times, we should do what we hv to do, bt if you do what you are force to do, when will you ever give yourself a chance to expose your 'talents'? oh, netball during pe last lesson was thrilling^^heh. and lastlyyyyyyyyyyy, today was our preview. our last saturday training. th last time both sch will ever train together again.(to you, the last time you will txt me and say sit with me, hhaaha) evrything was soo faaaaaast, i swear. please do your very best SNO and HNO<3 i missed today already, ish,hmmm okayyyyyyyy. (Y)

lack of updates.

2011-04-08T07:22:00.000-07:00

scorpioooooons^^

CIP and Cyclinnnnnnnnnnnng~

pics taken weeeks ago. sorry late late;p its been sometime since i last post, imissblogging. beeeeen very busy w sch. its been my routine evryday to go bck hme late, take atleast a short nap most imptly, and started working. it sounds pathetic and it feeels miserable too. Mr. said, ' treasure evry min you hv now in siglap bcs you willl nvr get bck to ths time again in th future' true enough. i knw how the ex(s) feeels like whn they were out frm th sch and how they missed their mates and evryth( k mayb not to all) clss tests evry week, SYF is in few days time, midyr is on th following week aft syf. tskkkkkkkkkkkk, see seee. im not lying whn i said im busy w sch. ive lots more to pen down actually but i gtg, hopefully i could find time again to make my almost-dead blog alive like how it used to ayye. takecare<3

THIS IS LIFE:DD

2011-03-13T01:07:00.000-08:00

CEST LA VIEEEEEEEEE WAS A BLAST! a memorable day to remember. SNO♥♥

fajrah'sister♥♥

with adieqqqqqqqq♥ zulfadliiiiiiiiiiililili♥ julianaaaaaaa♥♥

fathiah'sister♥♥

aminahhhhhh♥

the day siglapians have been waiting for^^camwhore during th breaaaak:D

random photosxzxz.

hafeeeeeeeeeez, tk parterrr♥

with katyyyyyyy♥

nurin farishaaaaaaaa♥

sebastiaaaaaaaan♥

haneeeeeeeef♥

ps: not all photos are uploaded.

MARCH HOLIDAYS~

one more down to goooooo~

extra classes. trainings. as planned w dear mates(hopefully)

it doesnt seeems like hols to me, dont they?

only pictures.

2011-02-26T22:17:00.000-08:00

qashdinaaaaaaa^^

hamidah and lyana girlf^^

babeslove<33

twisterrrr!

gentlemennn~

ladies~

SNO' 2011 ^.^

with fathiah'sisterrr^^

irmaaaaa^^

from the left: hamidahdianasuhaidahmyselfiffah^^

suhaidah and diana girlf^^

zakir and i end up studying like this during amaths lessson :p

amalinaaaa^^

kah yongggg^^

with adil^^

shazwannnnn^^

khairul amirin^^

amirah raudhah^^

siglapiannnnnnn^^

on red carpettt.

mascott: nabeeeeeeeeeel; )

hehehehee.

oh, pics include cny, school and iffah's mini party<3

2011-02-04T07:20:00.001-08:00

HI. Ive beeen gg bck hme lately due to cca and extra clsses. oh! and clss deco toooo, we won in second place and i still think tht our clss was waaaaaayyy better than bfer. I cant deny tht ths was th most creative and adorable clss deco tht i had among th past 4yrs(or isit 5yrs?no not yet) way a goo 5a2=) last tues was th last day fr cny deco and we paintd our hands fr hand-prints. What an experience. Experience on waterproof-painted-hands-.- it toook us more than half an hour just to remove them and i evn hurt myself.sshhesshh. But it was freaking exciting, idky bt i was th most excited;DD i knw it was just painting but it was funnnn like omg omg omg hehe. Overall, cny celeb was not bad; ) andddddd oour mascot'N=cutee. Hhaha. Anw, yeest midnight, dad treat us to mac whch i kept wondering why. Bcs we had nvr went out ths late, so yeh.heh. Iffah'girlf taggd alng aswell^^

Ps: sorryy fr th late update btw. Blogger gv me prblm nowadays. And pics will update soooon. Not using desktop but mobilephone(but so not mine.hehe) okay gotta runnnn! Xoxo.

2011-02-04T07:20:00.000-08:00

2011-01-31T03:13:00.000-08:00

i'll update sooon, i hope :p

prove to me that you dont have any other motive besides it, bcs i feel like you do.

short update.

2011-01-15T21:29:00.000-08:00

advanced and belated:D

much things in school now was different than years back then. to be short, a brand new start to a brand new year,hah. evryth chnged but not clssmates<3 last friday was cca day. yeh this year was a better one, evnthou it ended quite late. evryth was well-organised. no more cca day nxt yr;p pressure has started and schedule gets tighter week by week :S classmates has also started decorating the classroom, sadly i cant find the time to join you ppl. bt i'll try C: oh, due to good olvl results lastyear, tmr will be a half day for siglapians,gee! saturday was tiring but awesome mini party i should say^^ evryth plannd went smoothly and beyond expected. hehe. yayyyyyy~ hopefully evryone enjoyd yrself, especially to those twoooooos january babies^^ thankyou loves! xoxo.

i know. fyi i will not be updating this critical blog often onwards. yeh dull and dead. dont bother to read cs you will gt bored. definitely. trust me.

moving on.

2011-01-08T04:15:00.000-08:00

republic poly ;)

aww, i miss o'ten. things past soo fast tht i could still rmbr th old days even since sec1s. evryth went so smoothly and thrs nth to struggle or worried about. oh, when i was on my way bck yest evening, i heard a crowd in my sch. th juniors were hving their campfire and yest was their last orientation day. frm th activities they had for th past three days, i can tell tht they had loads of funn, and i bet they do. ; ) i love my batch, memories to treasure fr th rest of my life♥♥ if only i could turn back th time..

hols are finally over. sch has started fr th past four days. we visitd s'por rpublic nanyang poly(s) fr th past three days. annoying to say tht none of th exposed courses attract me yet. i didnt knw making decisions on poly courses was ths hard-.- ppl kept asking wht courses i would like to take bt i was totally unsure. nvm, put tht aside first. im not avoiding it bt im focusing more on th most impt things now. these determines my future also. so, we had no lessons excpt fr th ferst day. we attend a social etiquette session th whole of ths week. and i enjoyd myself muchh^^ quite a good start right? rather than you hv to study all th time, it will definitely be a bore. UNLESS, th sessions was boring. then i will understand ;p

wishing all o'lvl takers all th v best fr results this monday! ;) i will upload th pics for ths week if i hv th time alright. i cant deny tht im freaking worried too, evnthou thrs a second chance.

'the thing that matters is whether you want to do or you hv to' -coach Jun.

new years eve~

2010-12-30T07:49:00.000-08:00

pic taken lastwk, not today. hehh.

HI. i know theres crowd out there waiting for the fireworks and so forth. i spent my v last day of th year w girlfs jstnw afternoooon^^ i wish i could join any invitation frm you ppl to countdown bt nah, nxt tme perhaps? hee. :)

i hv nth much to say actually, but i'll surely welly treasure 2o1o:D may 2o11 brings extraordinary moments than years back then. InsyaAllah:) let evryth starts anew. let bygones be bygones, but i do believe in karma. hv a blessful year ahead loves. stayyy happy! lveyaall ♥♥

dear boy, evryth chngd whn you walkd into my life for th past twelve months. its been quite some time since i was found, until you came. a guy whch many girls fell in lve, bt you don't seems to bother?;p we both took major exams in the same year. you prove me wrong. you pushd me hard in studies and gv me non-stop encouragements. sports day incident brought me closer to you. and i was touchd, gee;) missing you since two months ago was v tormenting. evnthough we hardly contact and so forth, youre still the best! fated♥

ps: will update more sooon,

counting downnn.

2010-12-27T05:42:00.000-08:00

4 more days to 2o11 ~

171210: v unexpected.

2010-12-22T00:29:00.000-08:00

L: ni tears of joy or betul2 nye sedih?

Z: betul2 nye sedih.
L: oh cmne kau tau?
Z: er we got the same feelings. i knw how she feel. hmm.
L: ohh, a'ah eyh. korg kan mcm ade 'link'(whts th real wrd tht you said beb?heh)
Z: yeah.

precisely, evryone is shocked..

maybe it still hurt.

2010-12-13T02:20:00.000-08:00

sometimes, i'm amazed with the way brother and sister talked. their english are waaaaaaaayyyy better than mine. they were only 6-9 yrs old but they could speak in a proper english, not singlish. it is vvv difficult to actually hear them to talk in malay. bt idk how they interact with their friends la. one of the example which happend this afternoon was when brother asked me, 'can you give me a helping hand?' instd of saying, 'can help me?' i wonder why we big sisters hardly talked in english instd, haa. without realising ive fall for their way during conversation., hehh. they just seems much matured than me yknw:p

loves has been pouring out their problems to me lately. i cant do anyth much but to gv support and lend a listening ear. im sorry if it doesnt help much. and im not freaking saying im perfect but thankyouuu, sincerely for trusting in me. evnthough its holidays, we're all still keeping in touch. i believe theres always a way in solving problems. dont ever look back bcs it will just hurt you more. like i said, im not as strong as you think. it does not mean that you dont see me cry, angry or hurt, it doesnt exist. someone once said to me 'farsha like happygolucky eh' but i rmbrd tht, at tht v time, i was feeling down. get what i mean? so ya, pleaaase dont hurt other ppl's feelings. imagine tht you were in their shoes, how do you feel? karma. and i dont believe in taking revenge could heal evryth. do stay strong loved onesss ♥♥

o.m.g im sooo freaking worried right now. ive not been sleeping well lately. as days passed by, th more nervous i am. yess, you get it. im not counting down bt loves did. some even asked me whennn:/ this feelings just cant leave me alone. nyetttttttttttttttt~

our conversation months ago accompanied me almost every night.

just sharing.

2010-12-08T22:34:00.000-08:00

apologised for privating my blog. i had to settle some things first. but i doubt whos gnna read, hahhhhh:p well, as you see the outcome that i changed. i made them as simple as possible on purpose. er, ive neither valid nor strong reasons why but i prefer them to be this way.(: oh, ive just realised that i had accidentally removed the hits from my blog, shitttt-.- but i am plain lazy to replace it. so im not gonna use it anymore. mind me. anyways, i went to the library the day before yesterday. i read(borrow perhaps) a boook on motivation. err, malay version la. due to easier in understanding;p not bad i can say. but it depends on what book you choose okay. bcs theres some which are like, macam faham punye. hehe. hmm, after this ive to pause reading novels and start reading english books bcs someone said that i have enough knowledge on malay whateva thingy. hah, but im badly addicted to it years ago. will try love, no promisesss(:

i was thinking of you that night before i went to bed. i wasnt really sure what i was thinking about. oh wait, dont get me wrong. bukan mabuk cinta okayyy. alright, think and think and think until i fell asleeep. when you sleep, what happen? yesss clever. dreams. i cant really recall what i dreamt but when you dream, you can only seee but not hear things in your dream. am i right? surprisingly, i heard your voice. and your meltd voice woke me up. i didnt knw why tears started to well up in my eyes, but im pretty sure you know why. okayh, that's dream. the next night. i had a nightmare. not that creepyweepyscary stuffs' la. but abt you girl. oh no? oh yes. i dont feel like elaborating abt it here. enough to say that when i woke up in sudden, i realised that my eyes were wet. i thought i was only crying hard in my dreams but i was wrong. its for real as well. honestly im not as strong as you think, to let things go just like that. thats why im afraid if this really happen..

'how lucky you are doesnt determine by how many friends you have, but it is determine by how many people truly love you.' i frgt whn i quote it from, my sister i guess? hahh, but i find it meaningful though. try to undrstnd it, and im sure you will get what i mean. okay, gotta runnnnn!

true friends aint biased.

2010-12-06T06:00:00.000-08:00

1 Muharram.
and have a blessful december birthdayyyy loves!
to: e'lynnnn. khidhir. haslinah. hafeeez. ♥♥
it appears that love is more wonderful than dreams.
patience is just a little medicine for disappointments. it can heal everything.

2010-12-01T05:19:00.000-08:00

its decemberrrrrrrrrr!

pls pls pls dont ask me, 'whens results?' :S

ive planned to chnge my layout. bt none attract me yettttt. hhmm..

doesnt mean tht i dont hv any acct on fb i knw nth abt wht you did and wht you said. fcuk it.

2010-11-25T21:38:00.000-08:00

a quick update!

23nov: treat to swensens with mrs khiu^^ did you just lied again? mepekxzxsxzx=.=

24nov: went out at night with fadhilfikri~

25nov: day out w dinahiffahsuhaidah loves;D doesnt mean tht evrytme i went out i would spend up on things im interestd in or whtsoevrrrrrr. i will only spend on neccesary stuffs at times, and i love window shopping! bt yest was tiring, especially whn you went out for a day! mayb not to all bt to me. with th cold-rainy weather, wooooooots(: still, i enjoyd myself. will do this again^^ iffah's brotha jst gotten his psle results yest, and thr we goooooo, talking abt our results as well. it's gttng so nearrrrrrrrrr:/ anyhoos, we did talkd abt gg out of s'por by ourselves. hahaaaaa so out of th box right? i knw;p more plans ahead~

choose friends wisely. dont get influence by them so easily . certain 'friend' just wnna make use of yrself, nt sincerely befriend w you.

22nov .

2010-11-22T06:10:00.000-08:00

tonights' moon = beautiful^.^

♥♥♥

2010-11-19T23:08:00.000-08:00

girlfriends i loveee: medotlyanaqashdinasuhaidahdianaiffah♥♥: eh sbr la, amek gbr pmpn2 dlu.
: takkkkk, amek gbr bdk2 siglap dlu laaaa.
SNAP!
nih case terserampak ehh. hha.
shah: farsha kau blm amek gbr dgn aku.
me: da laa, td ape.
shah: tak blm. suhaidah amek kn gbr.
suhaidah: okok, korg kne amek gbr dekat2 dgn lampu, kalau tak nti gelap. blablabla ....
shah: okay apape la, amek gbr lawa2 eh.
suhaidah: oh kalo nak lawa, kte mest ade la.
evryone: eh cpt laaaa~
hahahaa. and fadzli menyelit sajerrrrrr. (:
i miss qashh boatloads~ his last day of school. and he was excited~ mum wake him up early in th morning. he opend his eyes, roll himself on th matress, and went bck to sleeep and said, 'hmmm' hahahaa, cute right? (:

kadang2 apa yang kite tidak inginkan/impikan menjadi kenyataan.

okay. *breathe in and out* celebration yesterday was, no comment. maybe theres misunderstanding and so forth. but im sure girlfs still enjoyed themselves, especially with the games we playd. kecohh^^ and i enjoyd tooo. most importantly, every single one of us had successfully turnd up after so long since we last met♥♥ maybe i wasnt really, into the mood whch i was supposed to hv at first due to not enough sleeep. yes, tired is the word. and the other reason was, something that kept bothering me-.- but ive remind myself to keep ignoring bcs the more i think of it, the worse it will be. dont make decisions when youre angry, and dont make promises when youre happy. -medot. im sorry but to steal, ok nt steal. bt to lend yr quotes you wrote in the letter yesterday and then pen down here. surprisingly i could still rmbr the whole sentences. hehh. when you asked, 'is there any gangguan ........ farsha?' (.... means theres something tht she said and i dont want to type out here) when we were somewhere at the vivo, i knew what you meant. to cried infront of you girls was actually embarrassing for me. i tried to hide them bt i failed. tht question touched my heart just like that. aww right? ;p and we do appreciate wht you had done for her, and us. i agree tht it took a hard tme for you especially to prepare evryth. qash! the last time i met you was during my surprise-birthday right? after that, i dont see you at all since we were all bzy preparing for our exms, especially for our N. bt thankgod, we met yesterday:D oh, i love your camera but i love you moreeeee^^ iffahhh! i hope you like my makeup tht i did for you. HAHA. bt you look like a doll, prettyaeeee^^ suhaidah! your crazyness made us laughd. th games you brought were th ones tht helpd us to make our dayy till night, evnthou it was already dark^^ lyanaaa! sorry to make you stay instd of gg home to watch tht show of yours. hahaa. oh you look adorable wearing tht red sunglasses^^ and lastlyy, diana oh dianaa, we apologised fr ruining your mood with one of th surprises. youre already sixteen, and so are we. we cn think th best for ourselves already. dont blame her fr evryth, bcs we agreed too. if we knw ths would hppn, we had cancelled abt tht plan earlier. but thankgod you did nt dragged tht mood of yours th whole day. it will hurt and make us guilty as well. and thkx for th laughters we had in th train and till bck homee^^ i wonder whn we will gather like 19nov again. let nt ths be th last tme we will meet ayye. thanks for evryth! and no matter what i still ♥♥ you girls: xoxo~

tak dpt no. abe stress? ape sajer laa.ha.

setiap pertemuan, pasti ada perpisahan.

2010-11-15T03:23:00.000-08:00

day out with them^^ fake bt coooool^^ with ammar (: ekmal bestf:D weisi! suhaidah girlf:D zul! amalinaa dearie:D squeezeeeee for WEBCAM! with nurman(: without nurman . dianaa girlf:D adabelle! amandaa!eleanor!
dianaa goh! hi(: sorry fr th long update. i tried to find time to upload these pics above and to get real update now. heh. okayh, class chalet on the 11th november, whch was just last week was *thumbs up!* it was great to see everyone again. okay, mayb not evry single one. bestf wasnt thr too. hmm.. it was a blast day for me^^ the games we played, the camwhores we took, the sing-along-session;p ,bbq-ing together, the jokes we lol about, everything~ thkx a million for all th world-laughters we had till we dropped, joy and sweeet moments, loves. if we were not meant to see each other again, let these be one of the memorable moments we had. muchhhhhhhh loves!♥♥ last saturday, went out w lyanasuhaidah girlfs^^ animation ppl seeems scary, especially bt the way they dressed. hehh. bt true, when can we see singapore to have such events again? today was hari raya haji(: th only different ths yr was tht we went to aunt's house instd. tmr, girlfs wantd to hold a 'meeting';p and friday, the dayyyyyyyyy:D ohoh, happy november birthday babies! to: yousuf. amandaa. nasyahh. afiqahh. haiqal. dianaa. mubarak. faiz. have a blessed day and all the best in evrything yeh~ ♥♥ eh i nvr wear makeup la, ape je.hah. let th pics tells evrythng ayye.

2010-11-12T06:02:00.000-08:00

cinta adalah anugerah yang terindah..

conversation with, Adrian.

2010-11-06T00:06:00.000-07:00

an old friend. Adrian is his name.

ADRIAN! says:

Farsha why u so pretty

I'm jealous

` ffarshaaaa^^ says:

huh?!

whr got

anyhow only you.

ADRIAN! says:

You pretty loh, I never anyhow

I'm jealouss

Pretty girl

` ffarshaaaa^^ says:

hahaa, bt why must you be jealous? youre not a girl wht? haa.

ADRIAN! says:

I'm gay

Oops

` ffarshaaaa^^ says:

hahaha

ADRIAN! says:

Farsha the prettysome

It's an honor to talk to you

` ffarshaaaa^^ says:

huh why?

ADRIAN! says:

Cause youre too pretty

` ffarshaaaa^^ says:

seriously im not, im plain simple like other girls also.

ADRIAN! says:

Well, i'm saying that you are pretty on the outside and inside

` ffarshaaaa^^ says:

hahaaa aww, thkx. ;p

ADRIAN! says:

Where can you find such a friend

((:

i knew him since primary sch. how great it is to talk to a friend that has beeen years down the road since we last talked. :)

why must you always be there to hurt me...

2010-11-02T06:30:00.000-07:00

thanks for everything babe<33

crying in your heart and crying 'out' are two different things..

2010-10-31T07:05:00.000-07:00

elective module.

2010-10-28T22:42:00.001-07:00

afternoooooon(: i made myself busy since last week on elective module(hospitality) and extra classes. activities turned the other way round than what i expected^^ first day of the activity was on the 13th oct. briefing and out to our very first venue, changi. 14th oct, it was a behind-the-scene day bcs we were given opportunites to actually see what happend in the kitchen and so forth.our ferst station was at the palm beach restoran. and then to burgerking. and to factory. into th freezer of -18 degreecelcius was awesomeeee^^ th following monday, we prepared for our showcase in school first. afterwards, we headed to our last and only venue, hotel-HolidayInn. beaaaaaautiful^^ wed, went to school for flag rising . and then we had a talk about 4N stuffs'. aft evrythng was done, went for break. and then prepared for our showcase. afterwards, went back with him. th part you tried to tie my hair real hard was v funnyyyyyy:D other days, turn up for maths classes and studied. one of the day, we kept debating continuously about other activities tht th other groups had gone to. haha. last monday was the last day of clss. and tues wed was the day)):theres nothing much tht i did at home right now other than reading novels(: girlfs, whens th out?
will upload pics as soon as i gt them ayye.

you lied to me.

one shot!

2010-10-20T08:22:00.001-07:00

ps: this was a paiseyh conversation between me and him last year. i wonder why i suddenly rmbrd abt ths, hehhhh. mind me.

we were having emaths lesson. i asked him,

"cmne nak dapat nih?"

*explained "and then you will get 519."

"no, its 591."

"that time budak 4N tengah ade exam pendengar kn, abeh she she look at me whn i walk pass"
"its kefahaman mendengar la"

we were talking about amaths camp.
"cher, sec4N have overnight study?"
"its night study only"

ps; ths is jst somethng random..

2010-10-18T07:08:00.000-07:00

mungkin kita sengaja dipertemukan dengan cinta yang salah agar kite bersyukur setelah mendapat cinta yang sebenar.

kalau benci jangan terlalu benci kerana kita mungkin akan menyukainya dan kalau suka jangan terlalu suka, kerana kita mungkin akan membencinya.

ps: will update sooon.

active.

2010-10-08T07:11:00.001-07:00

im baaaaaaack! ^^ i miss blogging. i miss spending tme w loves. i miss evryth. ask me abt N? nah, dont hv to. its overrrrrr~ anyways, lets update on wht i could rmbr tht hppnd fr th past one mnth and so yeh. alright, on th ferst day of th new term. nrml lessons as usual. to be short, all we did fr all subjcts was self-studying/revising. it was quite dull cs we were only gvn prac pprs to do-.- some of us didnt attend sch due to no-benefit-coming-to-sch. hahh. aft sch tht day, went bck w him. and thts whn i had sorethroat. threee weeeeks straight~ i rmbrd i last had it was last two years. yess, my best year still^^ it was a hard talk at ferst, bt slowly it ended with laughters, gee. on sat and sunday, spend tme w family and jalanraya. (: night call was a hard talk, sry love;p th fllwing monday, we were v excited and we wonder why, hehh. went out jalanraya w 4a4s aft sch. kecohable as expected^^ t'srempak w th sec5s also. hah i smhw saw you still. (: we went bck home v late. bt th nxt day, surprisingly to see evryone came v early in th mrning. haha. good impression loves^^ in clss, i was too tired and sick. cant take it. bt thkx to lyanaagirlf especially tht i felt better(: aft sch, second day of jln raye. it was v chaotic at night due to coming bck home late last night, parents kept nagging. evryone had th same scolding, hahaaa. and abt 1o+pm, most of our hp(s) rang bcs they clld. HAHA.,haiyo. on sat, went to lyana's crib fr 'gathering' i hope you enjoyd yr extraordinary day girlf, bcs im sure we all did(: we wantd to go home and since he was also outside, we went home together. one of th sweetest night ever^^ th fllwing tues, sl meeting aft sch. thn we headed to th canteeen. they were sitting tgther and z and me we like, 'eh kte pn jiwe uh, dating same2' hahaa. i seriously had a hard tme making decision, right e'lynn? ohoh, sry i smckd yr face. hehhehhhh, so, to fadhil's crib to stdy. i swear his mum was v friendly and she hv ths indonesian loook^^ friday, toook loads of pics. last day of pe. playd badminton w z'bestf and then chitchat. mr. joined us tooo :D clss photo, wrng timing i cn say. peeps brought cameras as well,X) aft sch, went to lyana's crib to stdy. didnt regret thou(: and yest was th end of nlvl. one more ppr o go, and yayyyyyyyyyyy~ i cant believe tht i had almst come to th end of my sec4 life. how fast tme flies. see me nxt yr? God's willing, Amin. and i want my love ones to be promoted also. may th force be w us. (: hehh. i didnt fllw thm yest, i was on by bed sleeeeeping^^ hahaha. ive been sleeeping v late, so yeah. must undrstd. hee. i only upload those pics above. see more pics at ammar's fb alright. ohoh, ppd low ppl, cant reply or ans call ayye. keeep on tagging! ((: last bt nt least~

happy 15th birthday sister! <33

ps: dont grow higher than me ehhh. :P

im missing sooon~

2010-09-11T04:15:00.000-07:00

hello! woah, its been few weeek since i last update right? anyways, im only updating thngs tht hppnd few weeks bck ayye.

monday: all lessons were as usual. ps: 4mre marks to pass exprss mths. yes, unexpected. keep gooooing~

tuesday: tchrs' day celeb as aces day.^^ captainsball fr girls and soccer fr boys. it was a good game aftrall and we sure enjoyd ourselves despite th hott whether and fastinnnnnng~ perfrmnces was knda dull. ss clss aftwrds and then bck home.

wednesday: did 'cleaning up' once i woke up. ive jst realised tht thr were so muchh dusk in my roon, no wonder i kept sneezing;p met fadhil ferst to stdy and then fazilfarhannadzirahdiana joind us lter (coincident i mean) went bck hme bfer breakfast .

thurday: gt bck results slip. imprvd bt nt satisfying thou. keep persevering still~

friday: flu frm mrning. w tissue all th way . irrits~

saturday: eng xtra clss. we thot we're late, bt Ms was half an hour later thn us-.- prinicipal dropby, 'th most impt thng is yr attitude. you may nt gd in studies bt wht abt other thngs? and its nvr too late to strt now. in life, nth is too late'

sunday: studied to th fullest till tense. evryone seemed to nt knw wht to stdy fr ss. v chaotic. and adieq came to our house and break fast tgther. (:

monday: nlvls begins~ and ilovemycompo, HAHA. ((:

tuesday: second ppr. we had 3-4hrs of break. went to clss fr few hours, and thn to oda aftwrds w lyanaadilnurmanzakirshazwan. wan lied to us and said w confident, 'eh! sri lanka tak klua! government confirm2 klua. sumpah! aku tny ckgu td' bt th fact was th opposite thng. nyetttttttttttttttt~ at night, went to iffah's crib. (:

wednesday: third last ppr of th weeek. aft break fast, went out to swensens w th As and Bs and ckgu. thkx fr treat^^ aftwrds we went to play bunga api at th playgrd nearby. by th tme we reachd thr, it was alr 1o.3o+. someone txt me on o8o91o at 11.12pm, hahaa, coool. since it was gttng late, fadhil fetchd me bck hme, tyvm^^

thurday: accompanied fadhil to do art. sry fr nt helping muchh.. fikri tagged alng, and kept cllng him 'adek' and he replied, 'okayh big bro' hahaha, adorable. (: raye night, did spring cleaning and wtchd tveee~ 40 hr rye mxges ;D

friday: ferst day of rye(: bt w/o sis and mum. at night-mrning, we had diarhoes. in and out of th toilet evryhr. v painful, and im still in pain rightnw..

saturday: woke up at ard 12+ due to stomache. planned surprise party fr sisterlve. so met adieq ferst. and then bck home. thankgod our plans works(: kazens came aftwrds. i was in th rm instd, lying dwn~

sunday, whch is tmr, err.. no plan i guess? im hving mths prelims on monday and tuesday. needa revise still. might still be hving lessons nxtwk. and since nlvls has strtd, im nt using th comp aften frm now. and i wanna wish these september babies a HappyBirthdayy;D enjoy yr day to th fullest as it only comes once a year. have a good life ahead~ stay happy and smile always^^ especially for: sisterlve, beloved father,shahirann, ainn, fiqahh, nurmann, amii, ammar, lyyanaa, imrann, ekmal, ikann, alot kan? hahx. and SelamarHariRayaMaafZahirDanBatinnnnn^^ frgv me fr all my wrng doings yeh? enjoy yr celeb ppl~ and keep tagging alright. i'll passby whnevr i can.

xoxo, ffarshaaaa^^

maths again? -.-

2010-08-27T05:38:00.000-07:00

lessons resume since last monday and results were released ths weeek. monday aft sch, did maths w one and only z'bestf^^' 'ehh da nk hujan tauu. tknk msk ke?' *lookd at th sky. 'kay tkp2, blaja2' we were being serious at one point of time and i said, 'ceyh kte serious seyh blaja.' 'a'ah seyh. cuaca pun da panas balek' both of uswere like, 'amin!' hahahha. bt few mins aft tht, it was raining heavily. so we stopped and meeet thm. tuesday aft sch, did mths again. end up, only zakir and i stayd. he was searching fr solutions fr our mths ppr in th tchr's drawer whn he found jane's compo(our exclssmate who was frm korea) and we read thm. it was v funny bt cuteeeee^^ wednesday, we did our ppr1 till ard 3+, and then 'photoshooooot~' thursday, ppr2 was ))))))))): th ppr was as superhard as i thought. finishd ppr at 5, and then balek same dheee(: friday, pe was awesomeeee^^ played ths new game w awesome ppl: adilshazwanzakirammarnabeelnurmanekmalsuhaidahdiana and we were spiltdup. th ball went out of th sch court thrice? bt none of us went out to take th ball. we waitd fr passerby(s) who was outside th court to take fr us. hhahaha.. aftwrds.. th muslims were all v thirsty and whn we saw th others drank, we were like 'ahhhhhhh~ tahan2' hahaha. anyways, gg out to meeet girlfs' tmr fr 'warmup game' ;p win or lose, does not matter. most importantly, as long as we play fair and we enjoy ourselves. ive beeen wating fr ths moment, and yessssss. finally. afwrds, break fast w family outside ~ will update sooon, i think.

back to blog till.............?

2010-08-20T06:25:00.000-07:00

greeeeetings(; its been three weeks since i last blog. i bet ive been missing alot of updates bt thrs nth much fr me to pen down since all i did was preparing fr prelims. 4Ns wasnt really serious especially during mt pprs. evryone took thm lightly bt i find th ppr was pretty hard. tht goes th same fr other pprs as well ofcs. struggling, rushing fr tme, thinking hard~ nyehh. on 6august was national day celeb. in sch, in red. performance was okayh. ncc freestyles rock th hall, v funny and cuteeee (: i got th flag and i was excited by it, HAH. aft concert, peeeps wantd to go to th field to watch interclss soccer game. by th tme we reachd it was alr th final, and th weather was hottttttchaa. whoooshh. on 9ugust was s'por 45th birthdayy^^ had breakfast w family and then to dwntwn. aft choosing our items, sesame street was held. woooaaaahh, so th zaman dlu, bt no elmo. sedeyh;p i really wantd to watch firewrks ths yr bt idky. so last min plan, went off w sisters to meet others aft tht. w fadhilrusydahafizadieqzhafsisers to watch fireworks! like at laaaaast;DD th jet plane and evryth was looooooud, takd warning plak tuh. bt besttttt^^ one whole day was tiring bt worth~ lessons resume on wed and it was th ferst day of fasting month.(: aft one whole week of feeling dwn, full of sadness, i finally had my laughters bck, especially w him. nonstop lol^^ today was so-called th last ppr fr prelims. bt i still hv to sit fr mths ppr nxtwk. nyettt. aft a short nap, went out w family w/o sisters to visit grndf in th hosp. i controlled my tears evrytme i saw th elders trying to wake him up and soforth. he is in critical condition and could hardly move. gna visit him again tmr, )))))))))))))))):

if you think im making you jealous, youre definitely wrong. thts not me. stop bugging ard telling others tht he stole me frm you. ive nvr been anyone's one aft him bfer, and so do yours. ask me fr facts bfer you ppl assume anyth alright. it all depends on who you trust. and since whn i lied? hv i evr exprss my feelings to you? think bfer you say uh. youre trying to say i hv to be yours also? i wont frgt th harsh words you said it to me bfer. you guys are jealous or wht? rimas seh~ i wont bother to turn bck evn if you cont' being like ths still.

hmm..

2010-08-02T22:57:00.000-07:00

i couldnt control myself that i cried on him. )':

i just need comfort..

)):

2010-08-01T05:47:00.000-07:00

im starting to dislike you again, girl..

just mind your own business please.

dead blog.

2010-07-30T06:45:00.000-07:00

lets pen down only on what hppnd on tuesday night and friday ayye. other days were jst like normal days. 4NA had eng night study. aft sch, dianagirlf' fllwd me home instd. eat>fetch sis>comp>ss notes>nap>wash up>went offf. my prediction was true. not all of them turn up bcs it was eng and it was th most boring lesson evr now-.- i dislike th way she teach. so boringggggg:/ bt A3 was 'wohh' unlike us. we were gvn work to do. one of th thng tht we had to discuss on was random: 'what will boys do to attract girls that they're interested in?'nurmanguyf' make up a stry and it was lol, muchh laughters w others tooo;DD adt evryth's done, we went off. i didnt realised that a grp of soccer boys could see me frm far evn thou its alr night time and shouted my name. t'kejut skjap.. i thot they wna ask smth or wht. i loook at them and they look at me. *question mark face*

friday, maths test(s) day-.- ferst period was PE lesson. i only sat at th side, dont feel like playing. weather chnged whn we were hving amths. fuhhhhhh. (: we had test again, bt i did nt do. hahhh. i frgt th steps and th quest was complicated. so i decided to leave it tht way. hehh. recess. emths. three period of test again. then clss dismissed~ stayd w diana and th rest to complete our assignments. ky keep on bothering me and made me laughd like, non-stop. he's full of craaaaaaaaaaps i tellya. hahaa:DDD aftwards, to th canteeen w elyanaameliffahsuhaidahlyana~ muchh laughters again((: canteen was almost full w 'soccer boys' nurman look upset and he was th only one wearing diff shirt. 'knp kau sedeyh? asl tk pki clss tshrt mcm yg laen seyh?' "tgk uh, kakak aku uh nih. letak baju die colour merah dgn baju nih.' he showd me his white shirt tht has chnged to pink. instd of comforting him, i laughd. HAHA. i swear it was funnny bt cute. ;p and then he showed his boots tht was alr tear apart. 'cmne kau nk pki boot nih kalo koyak?' 'aku ikat pki getahh' HAHA. cute right. pity him...watchd th soccer interclss. wont elaborate muchh. half way thru, i was w elynfee. it was funnnnnnnnn^^ then went bck home w him. (:.im tired..... gg off to bed soooooon~ ohh, i wont be updating my blog fr now. prelims nxtwkk, bestofluckk people(:

i hv smth to say bt i dont knw how to sayyy...

strange..

2010-07-28T08:30:00.001-07:00

you dont have to look at me in that way. -.-

secondlove .

2010-07-23T00:39:00.000-07:00

TGIF: thankgodit'sfridayyyyyy. greeeetings(:

lastfriday: last min plan to s'porexpo w iffahsuhaidahdinahh(: : fleeeee market.
saturday: previous post stated: singapore garden festival with family and sis'sboyf. (:
sunday: homework-.-
monday: english nlvl oral. aft oral, helpd him w his art w girlfs' and aniq. (: aww imissart~
tuesday: olvl listening compre. AMEL 16th BIRTHDAYYYYYY !
wednesday: Racial Harmony Dayy^^ evn thou its alr 7.15am, quadrangle wasnt packd at all. whn i came, guyfs doesnt want to talk to me. 'apee seyh farshaaa, tk pki. tk best seyh gni-.-' hahahaha sorry la, im nt in 'traditional mood' yet. ;p went bck to clss fr pc lesson. whn i went twrds guyfs to take pic w thm, they strted it all again saying, 'eh spe tak pki baju kurung tkleyh amek gbr eh' 'ehh alamak. farsha masuk je camera rosak skjp' hisyyyyyyy-.- then i bhase thm bck by wearing zakir's clothes since he brought two. amek kau:b eng. gven bck wkshts. and then we did random stuffs like introducing ourselves. hahh so th pri sch. and chem was nxt. bt Mr. did nt attend clss, so we had relieftchr instd. peeeeeps frm other clsses came into our clss and it was vvv chaotic~ we had to go to th hall aftwrds. awwww, how sweeet of th tchrs and evn principal to gv us a surprise(graduating students) by dancingsingingrappingacting~ it was vvvvvvvv adorable and entertaining:DDD z and i could nt control ourselves tht we laughdout aloud at their hilarious actions. i swear they're all vvvvvvvvvv funnyyyyyy and talentd^.^ yeh, wht if we are all nt tgthr anymore? just th presence of th uppersec can make th hall go 'wild'((: proceeed to th carnival. nth muchh. then bck to clss fr reflections~ ohoh, LUQMAN 16th BIRTHDAYYYYY ! ive make him upset, im sorryy..
thursday: FAAIQA'SISTER BIRTHDAYYYY !

some pics are w me, nt gna upload thm fr now. keep on viewing anw yeh. sec1-3 are hving their commontest(s) ths coming monday. fr us? twoooo mre weeeeks to gooo~ gooodluck to you'll(:

i dont like th way you loook at me now, it is like as if i did something wrong to you, whn i actually dont. bt you yrself. dont involve my sister into ths matter.

brotherlove~

2010-07-20T06:43:00.000-07:00

fikri: mak i hv matae.
mum: astaghfirullahalazim, you small2
hv matae already. yr sister hv matae i want to beat alr.

fikri: hehhhehhh.

-went off and sat beside
me.-
me: aiyoooo. you hv matae alr
uh?
fikri: heh no laaaa. i bluff only.
*beat me plus blushhh*
fikri: kakak, whr you want to
go?
sister: gg out, why?
fikri: you dont go out w matae uh,
later i tell ibu.
sister: HAHA. kuangasam btol, tell
uh.

hahahahaha, funnnehhh bt irrits-.- he cnnt kp secrets yknw. he will talk to me randomly or ask me fr permission to use my thngs with his pity face. nyetttt~

Singapore Garden Festival .

2010-07-17T07:14:00.000-07:00

continueee~

i dont like ths feeeling..

2010-07-10T06:23:00.000-07:00

wednesday was th best day of th week. i woke up 15mins aft my sis woke me up;b i was superb tired to get up bcs i slept a lil late th night bfer. ade je org tk bag tdo. hahh. reportd to clss instd since th weather seeemed, dark. wan came in and shoutd 'spain!!' terkejut glerr~ haahha. we were introduced to a new teacher. and i frgt her name. hehhh.

Mr: she is so called my assistant fr 5weeks. my ex student and also my neighbour. she lived at 3rd lvl bt i lived at 5th level.

Evryone: how yknw uh? stcker uh? ceyhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

Wan: you frm wht sch?

Ms: erm dunman sec.

Wan: oh dunman? yknw Mr.? he's my neighbour :b

Ms: oh really? he is a nice man.

Wan: ya, i lived at 3rdlvl he lived at 5thlvl. he always sent me food.

HAHAHA :b ferst period was eng. we did close passge prac. w/o Ms. eng lessons has beeen v booooooring-.- nxt was ss. we were needed to do essays. lyana and myself did half way through and then chitchat. her stories was all abt soccer yknw. yawn* 'sry uh cte boring. takya la nanges smpi air mate klua. emosional plak.' hahahhaa. nxt was chem. thrs one part whr dianagirlf' wantd to ask fr help and calld 'Ms Melissa Soh!' confidently. bt her name was actually 'Ms Sabrina Soh'. hhaa! dgn confident die menjerit. tauu la rndu MsChin :b recess. cme, bestest lesson of th day!^^ we went to basketball court to play games. we had to bring along our chairs fr th games, whn we were at th ferst lvl, most of th siglapians in th clss lookd out of th window. they thot tht we were punishd-.- i heard sauf's voice, saying 'haha kesian pe. tkd clss pe korg?' HAHAHA. we played caterpillar using chairs and no communicating, only handsigns allowd. 'wht do you guys learn, tht strt w letter C?' 'cheatinnnnnnnnnng.' hahahahah, stndrd:D aftwrds, mt. err i frgt wht hppnd bt i knw thrs much laughters especially bcs of wan's jokes((; maths, Mr. did nt attnd lesson bcs he hv smth on. Mr. came and took us to replace him. i realised tht he kept saying 'alright' aft each sentence. v funnnnyyyy. hehhh. lastly, geog. (:

saturday, went fr CIP at raffles place. met dianaammarzakirkhairullyanaekmal at mac. terserempak w luqman'guyf w his mom and brotha. aft evryone had arrived, we went off. aft i salam luqman's mom, he poked me at my weaaaakest part whch i cant control, his mom laughd and i was v paiseyh:b we arrived earlier than th masters. since we had 1hr of free time. walkd ard w lyanadianazakirekmalnabeel while loooking fr mac. th mac. thr was v unique, i like. hehh. aft briefing, we were separated into groups of threee. th grp of mine had to make th windmill whch was aloooooooooooooot, half way through i was gttng bored and tired, so i playd th blocks and create a pyramid. i was hving soo much funnn playing alone when th pyramid went, 'boom!' i lookd up and saw suhaidahzakir and idk who else looking at me and laughd. idk who threw bt obviously it was one of thm. smua tknk mengaku. kuangsam glerrrrrrrrrrr uh~ then i stop playing alr. i step mrajuk only. ;p it was drizzling so we had to moved and went to a shelter. like finally, evryth was done. i went to th place whr all th windmills was planted. it was windy and most of th wndmills spinned, superb nice! manyyy things happend, and i shall not pen down evryth ayye. nabeeel guyf' came to us and said, 'eh who wants beg? i found' he gave to some of my friends and i askd whr he found it. 'ehhh beg kat sane aku pnye slenge' he ran off and purposely hung his beg ard his neck so tht i could nt steal his-.- he kept teasing me and laughd at me. like, 'ive lost my beg' -.-" went off at almost 6. we were v noisy in th mrt, blamed thm fr tht. hahh. we went to payalebar to accompany lyana'girlf to buy ticket. aftwrds we went to eat and strytelling^^ back home. (:

i was v upset yest night tht i cried, live. cried fr hours. i swear my mind was all over tht i hardly think abt wht i should do. idk who to blame, myb me? im confused.. totally. no one would undrstnd th situation i am in, bcs they hv nvr gone through like th way i did. i knw i hv to put ths aside and focus more on impt things, bt i cant whn thngs like ths are hunting me. )): anw, teachers has been wishing us, 'all th best fr Ns' hisyy, time flies soo faaaaast. i knw it is impossible to turn bck th clck, bt you can wind it up again.